Goodbye Ekisa

All the kittens but one(Seth) have left the house ;w; But I guess what got me the most must be the leaving of Ekisa the mother cat....
To think how afraid she was the first time I tried to get her trust she didn't dare to get to close to me, I lured her with food
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And it took 1-2 weeks when she began to respond to my calling and come to me...Eventually I tried to make her social and show
her not all people are as scary as she might have thought, we think she was a cat that got dumped sadly but the change of personality 
that came with me caring for her was amazing, her purring and seeking for attention she was truly a kind cat I will never forget <3 She
was hidden underneath that fear one of the kindest cats ever ;_; Originally I wanted to keep her ;w; But once she got kittens she became
a nightmare to my older cat and our outside cat Yuki, although some people told us she would get better and sweeter after some weeks she
did not, she chased them of or attacked my older cat that I had to come in between and safe him ;w; when that happened I was terrified for
what could have happened to my older cat ;w; He can't defend himself to a young cat like that I rlly had grabbed him right away to protect him
but it was also then that I knew she couldn't stay and we refused the idea of a shelter so luckily we found this great person who didn't only
adopt a kitten but also the mother cat Ekisa ;w; Ekisa sure was afraid when leaving but the owners told me I could definitely visit her if I want to ;w; 
I gave her some cat candy so Ekisa would be more calm ;w; But yeah it's a hard day having to let go of them is hard but luckily 3 will stay.

Eventually i'm glad for this experience it putted my heart to the test, I could never abandon a street cat like many could *cough* even my
own grandfather was like I would have chased her away*cough* don't feel like i'm related to him*cough*. But i'm glad me and my mom put our
heart and soul into that cat since if she would have given birth outside the chances would have been high that only 1-2 cats would have made it
due to the fact she got sick and outside there is no medication, and the harsh cold weather there was back then ;w; Ekisa was lucky to run into me
and that has left us with 3 beautiful kittens eventually ;w; I'll miss them all, Ekisa, Deimos, Nailah, Seth, Chepi...Caring for them it truly felt like
they were my babies ;w; I'm gonna try and keep in touch with the owners just to see how they'll grow up to be beautiful cats ;w; <3 Only Seth is now
here ;w; he'll be going tomorrow normally he was going today but the people ended up not being able to get here on time so he'll stay one more day ;w;

Since my mom will be gone for 2 months i'll be seeing Deimos and Ekisa in 2 months for real again ;w; I wonder if she'll recognize me ;w;
Having had 7 kittens here was amazing but people have no idea unless they went to it themselves how hard it is to let go of all of them ;w; urgh
especially since some got from the bottle due to the little weight in the very start it made us more attached than anything to these little guys ;w;
It feels almost empty but yeah today i'm sleeping downstairs so that the kittens feel comfy during the night at least ;w; 

I did get a phone call from the owners of Ekisa telling us how it went ;w; Sadly Ekisa was terrified she had peed in the carrier  but I told her Ekisa would
flip out a bit luckily though Ekisa by now is exploring her new house she had stayed for a long time under the bed there but now she's xploring and she got food
and little Deimos is getting used a lot faster for Ekisa it's a super big step but she'll be fine ;w; <3 poor ekisa I hope she'll feel safer tomorrow! <3 It's sad but it was the only option ;w;